Thursday, June 14, 2012

Note to Self...Shut Thy Mouth!

Well, I've always known that I had a big mouth.

U know that little filter that most people have between their brains & their mouths? That little thing that keeps people from saying things as soon as the thought hits the brain?
Well, I don't have one!

Tends to b problematic @ times.

Obviously, speaking on impulse means I don't think about how things are going to sound once the thought is converted to words & emitted from my mouth.

I know what I mean when I say something, but since I frequently say EXACTLY what I'm thinking, w/out thinking about how it will sound once it's out there...things can get terribly misconstrued.

I frequently find myself explaining & clarifying what I meant -vs- what I said.

Clearly, my mouth is one of the biggest reasons that I need DD in my life & marriage.

What is the most recent learning experience?

During a spanking, it would be best to answer questions with 'Yes/No' answers.
Obviously this is NOT the time to blurt out something that your Top/HoH perceives as a 'challenge'. This is especially true when the response is centered around pain tolerance & limits.

Jase was more than prepared last night to 'conquer' the perceived challenge (which, I would like to add, was not a challenge @ all, it just came out wrong).
It seemed that the more I talked, the deeper the hole I dug for myself.

I must admit, the expression on his face made me a little, ok, a lot nervous.
When I get nervous, I laugh! Can I just say that if there was ever a BAD time to laugh, this was it!
I kept on talking (dummy!) "wait, baby please, wait, I'm sorry, I didn't mean it like that, I just meant..."
Each explanation seemed to make matters slightly worse...

There it was that feeling of impending doom, the "there's really nothing I can say to right this mess" feeling in the pit of my stomach...

Then, saved by the possibility of a child attempting to enter the bedroom.

However, that was last night & this is tonight.
I will be in route home in less than an hour. The kids will be asleep... Leaving Just the 2 of us & the implements...

He says he understands that It was a misunderstanding. That he just took what I said the wrong way.
I, however feel that his original perception of my statement will forever (if not forever, @ least for 2-night) linger in the back of his mind & I'm already pretty sore from last night!

From this point forward, during a spanking, I will definitely be cautiously aware of what I say before I say it!


Sunday, June 3, 2012

Stress Release Spanking # 2

I got in from work Saturday morning & started working in the house. Jase was awake as well & it wasn't long before we realized that the entire house was still sleeping...hmmm...the decision was easy. We would finish where we left off Thursday night.

Out came the implements & Over I went. A nice warm up, again with his hand, a wooden spoon & that plastic, slatted spatula.
Then again, harder strokes with his hand, the cane, the paddle, & the 5-strand.
"How are you doing" he leaned over & asked me. "Well, I'm not crying yet."
I have so much stress that has got to be penetrated & while I can feel each spanking provide more relief, I crave the spanking that pushes me beyond my limit & I reach that full catharsis!
My response to his question was met with multiple paddle strokes one after the other, covering my entire bottom & harder than I'd ever felt! I whimpered & squirmed but tried desperately not to break position. Part of me wanted to stop, but the other part of me knew that This was exactly what I needed & wanted... more of it & HARD!
I look so forward to the day when I'm pushed beyond that point! I'm sure it will be like a most amazing moment for both of us. In the mean time, we are actively chipping through the layers & layers of stress that we must get through to get to the ultimate goal! I'm certainly enjoying the spankings that are getting us there! & I feel certain Jase is finding it just as enjoyable & stress relieving!
I love my husband, my BFF, My Best & only Top Forever!


Stress Release Spanking

I'm so thankful that Jase & I agreed to practice DD & spanking.
This whole thing came about because our marriage seemed to be teetering on the brink of destruction.
Unfortunately (or fortunately) we have very little time for discipline. But we are learning to make time for as much spanking as we can! :-)
The bond we have has always strengthened during difficult times. This time, our relationship was growing stronger & stronger with DD/TTWD/our spanking kink, etc.
Now, when @ the moment it seems like it's us against the world, our love, trust & relationship continues to grow stronger & stronger.
The thought of ever being without him is unthinkable.
The children are happy because we are happy.
Through everything we are still maturing in our roles (Top/Bottom), etc.
Thursday, we finally got the chance to play. Strictly stress relief. It was such a nice relief. (only spankos can understand how a painful spanking can be a nice relief!)
He started with warm up with his hand, a wooden spoon & also peppered me with a plastic slatted spatula(that spatula is very good for warm up!) He used the paddle, cane & belt. I tried to count but I just couldn't. Seemed we both would've liked to have continued for longer but the stress release provided in that session, had us both finally ready for a good, sound nights sleep.
I could feel the heat radiating from my bottom. We snuggled & spooned, I loved going to sleep with his body molded into my warm, sore bottom.
We were so @ peace & both of us slept so soundly! It was wonderful!
For the 1st time since all this added stress began, I woke up happy, not depressed!
WoW! What a spanking can do!!!
BTW... I would like to add that after a little experience in the spanking world, I would have to agree with Sarah Thorne...WOOD IS EVIL!
I have learned that Jase's Firm hand & a thick Leather Belt are my 'favorites'!
I'm so thankful for my loving husband who also happens to b an AWESOME top!

Saturday, June 2, 2012

Spanking or DD???

Our lives recently have just been turned upside down. I hate that I don't have time to blog. When I do blog, it seems to be all over the place.

Part of me is wondering if I shouldn't advertise this as a DD blog, but rather just spanking. While we are new to & still actively working to incorporate DD into our marriage, it seems that most of my blogs are related to our kink rather than our domestic discipline.

I really enjoy the support in this community.
Like pretty much everything else in our lives right now, I'm really confused.

Amazing how spanking can provide such needed stress relief for both parties!
I have been taking anti-anxiety medications lately, even taking up the occasional alcoholic beverage. Of all the things prescribed to me, nothing has provided the relief that I got with a good stress relief spanking! It was very relaxing & calming for Jase as well. I'm so glad my 'TOP' enjoys this as much as I do. :-)

Oh, well all I can say is I'm thankful for our love for each other & our bag of implements! & whichever direction this blog goes, I'm glad we embraced this lifestyle. Right now it is the only thing in our lives that is a norm & a constant!