Busy, Busy

Here it is the weekend, AGAIN. So I'm back @ work. Waiting with anticipation to see what trauma's the local 'Gun & Knife show' has in store for us this weekend.
We've been so busy taking care of other important business, that we have had no time to discuss & work on anything else, much less blog about it.
:-( So, @ least we r getting through current trials together w/out being @ each others throats. That's a definite positive!
Maybe later tonight I'll have free time where I can write. I just always hesitate to do it from my phone. I'm a little worried that I'll get distracted (I've got major ADHD) & inadvertently text my blog to my kids teacher instead of posting it to the site! LoL! Unfortunately, {sigh} I have some of the best "blonde moments", so something like that could potentially happen to me!!!

Working out the 'Spanking Kinks'

It amazes me that you can spend 20 years with someone, know every inch of their body, know what they are going to say before they say it, know all of their likes and dislikes (or so you think)... but still not truly know them! 

It is just as amazing to me that you can feel so comfortable with someone, you can share your most intimate secrets with them, but still be afraid to admit certain things.

It seems that this is not uncommon, especially as it relates to discipline in a marriage. 

I am an educated professional who is in a leadership position & has to be in charge and strong in the workplace. I am a grown woman, I am the person that others come to for advice, help or just an open ear.  Yet I feel I need to be disciplined by my husband?!?!  I need guidelines & consequences.  I need to be reminded and reprimanded.  I need the release of having been held accountable for my selfish and destructive actions. Recently having come to the above realizations I felt so alone! This isn't exactly something that you can discuss with your girlfriends over a margarita.  How in the world was I going to bring this one up to my husband? What was he going to think of me? How was I going to discuss it... I can barely say "spank" without blushing... but honestly, our marriage & friendship were teetering on the edge with so much of it being because I'm a spoiled rotten brat with control issues. (ugh! That sounds bad! But I don't really know how else to put it.)

Blog...Blog...Blog

I've been trying to figure all this Blog stuff out. Apparently I'm much better @ lurking than blogging.
I decided to start blogging bc like so many, my husband & I have decided to incorporate domestic discipline into our marriage.
We are still in the beginning stages, so what better time to start blogging? I often find it easier to express my feelings in writing & @ least this way, I won't get writers cramp!
I have so much swimming around in my head, so much that I want to say.
Since deciding to make this change in our lives I have already learned so much about myself & Jase (my husband). I'm very excited about the positive changes that are already taking place in our lives! But, after trying to figure out how to navigate a blog (without inadvertently sending a mass e-mail to the home town PTA announcing my new 'lifestyle'), it is late & I'm exhausted. So, I am going to go to bed now & maybe tomorrow I'll be better equipped to understand the world of Blog & then I can start journaling all of this stuff that is crammed in my head!!!